yup that's me, or Crabby Mum as the kids have nicknamed me, and the reason for this complete change of personality (no sniggering at the "complete change" part please)? well I've finally bitten the bullet and stopped smoking.
I have tried for years to stop smoking but my big problem is no will-power, I always hoped that being pregnant would have made me stop, but I could've quite merrily eaten fags when I was pregnant, especially with Faith. I've done the patches, but kept having a sneaky fag while wearing them for the buzz (!!), I've tried the gum, the inhalator, the electronic cigarette, and even hypnosis - but it just didn't work for me.
Well a month or so ago my best friend decided to give the Champix tablets a try, in case you're interested it's supposed to bind to the nicotine receptors in your brain so reducing cravings, it allegedly reduces the symptoms of whithdrawal and reduces the satisfaction the smoker gains from smoking a cigarette. You're supposed to pick a day to stop smoking between day 8 and day 14 of taking the tablets. So she stopped on day 10 and hasn't had a cigarette since, she says the smell of smoking now makes her feel sick - in fact she is the biggest pain in the bum ex-smoker that ever was lol
So Graham and I have decided to stop smoking, he's away offshore with his tablets and I started taking mone just before he went away. I had my last cigarette on Sunday night, seeing as it was 4 years exactly since we stopped smoking in the house and I would remember the date as it's Fayfee's birthday.
Now, I'm not going to say it's easy, because I haven't found it at all easy - although in fairness I have found it easier than the nicotine replacement therapy products. I am now on day 2 of no smoking and I could murder a fag - I have to keep reminding myself not to have a cigarette, my biggest triggers seem to be after a cup of tea (so I've switched to coffee), and after food (so I chew a carrot or eat some fruit) and the worst one of all is when I'm on the phone - I didn't realise that I automatically answer the phone and reach for my cigarettes ready to go outside with a fag an have a blether. Now if I was a normal person thentalking on the phone isn't that big a deal, my phone doesn't really ring very much - but I'm not a normal person, and I talk to my bestest pal 2 or else 3 times a day, up to an hour each time lol And with Graham being offshore, he phones every night too, which just adds to my danger time. But so far I'm coping. I announced my stopping smoking on my Facebook pages yesterday, I wasn't looking for sympathy or even all the fantastic support and encouragement I have been getting - I did it so that I would look really bloody stupid if I failed, and that's a pretty big incentive for me, I just hate to look stupid.
I'm not convinced the Champix are actually working for me - cos it doesn't seem to have reduced my cravings any, but then I'm wary of stopping them in case they have been working and I'll get the full force of the cravings. But I have to go back to the GP tomorrow, so I'll see what he has to say.
I'll try not to bore you over the coming days, weeks and months with my no smoking journey, but I will try to keep you up to date with my progress in between some crafty stuff. Am trying to find the time to get some promarker tuts together - so if anyone has any special request just let me know and I'll see what I can do.